Metal Until the Grave

Two German men escaped from their retirement home last week to attend a metal festival, which is very metal. They may have set the record for oldest people to ever sneak out to go to a concert after being denied permission to go.


Album of The  Week

Belle and Sebastian -If you're Feeling Sinister (1996)

This album was recorded in just a few days, and only a few months after the bands first album was finished. Stuart Murfoch, the band leader, was eager to get another album out right away. He had been in and out of hospitals for the last seven years with a chronic fatigue disorder. He felt like he had wasted years of his life. A doctor recommended he take some music and photography classes as part of his recovery. Eventually leading to this album and him taking the cover picture for the album. It is a picture of his friend he met in the hospital who had the same condition as him, taken as she wiped the tears from her eyes after being swept up in the emotion of her struggle. 

Ooh! Get me away from here I’m dying
Play me a song to set me free
Nobody writes them like they used to
So it may as well be me
— Get Me Away from here I'm Dying
Hilary went to her death because she couldn’t think
Of anything to say
Everybody thought that she was boring, so they never listened
Anyway
— If You're Feeling Sinister

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Best New Song: Autumn Love

Just leave me floating on the open ocean
And let the moonlight take me anywhere on a tidal flow
— Death Cab for Cutie

Especially Me

Cause if we knew where we belong
There’d be no doubt where we’re from
But as it stands, we don’t have a clue
Especially me and probably you
— Low

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Medic

She says, You always smell like cigarettes
And there’s always whiskey on your breath
But you’re the best that I can do
And I, I think I love you.
— Foxing

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Elvis is in the Freezer

I have emotional motion sickness
Somebody roll the windows down
There are no words in the English language
I could scream to drown you out
— Phoebe Bridgers

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Moshed potato and Beans

A video went viral this week of a metal fan eating cold beans directly from the can in a mosh pit, I'm not sure which I would be less likely to do: be in a mosh pit, or eat cold beans from a can. I suppose the Mad Max scenario where I would have to do both for survival is as likely as me doing either separately.


Album of The  Week

The Antlers - Hospice (2009)

One of the most sorrowful albums you are likely to find aptly named Hospice, this album takes you through all the stages of grief. This album switches between perspectives as it follows the journey of a young woman dying of cancer in Hospice care from the eyes of her boyfriend and her nurse. This somewhat autobiographical album is tough to listen to all the way through without having a strong emotional response. The most upbeat song on the album is a metaphor for the couple deciding to get an abortion. It doesn't get much darker or more honest than this album. 

Wish that I had known in that first minute we met
The unpayable debt that I owed you
— Kettering
I’m bound to your bedside, your eulogy singer
I’d happily take all those bullets inside you
And put them inside of myself
— Atrophy

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Best New Song: Christmas Island

And the drinkers won’t stop drinking
So their livers might stop working
And the living keep on living
Until they’re dead from all the dying
— AJJ

Come to Me Now

Can’t wait for the sun to go down
Tired of squinting at this ugly little town
I can’t wait for that moon to shine
She’s my friend, always been, you can see it in my eyes
— Kevin Morby

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Metal Heart

 
Once was lost, but now I’m found
Was blind, but now I see you
— Cat Power

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Elvis is in the Freezer

My lover is all gone
And it’s my fault
— Ratboys

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Stylin

Harry Styles raised $1.2 million for charity with his most recent tour, with donations from all his merch sales and part of his ticket sales going to multiple charities. Just goes to show you don't have to make good music to do good with music. 


Album of The  Week

The Killers - Sam's Town (2006)

Lead singer of Brandon Flowers proclaimed before the album's release that it would be one of the best of the last twenty years. A bold proclamation for the band's second album that managed to actually live up to that declaration. This album delves through the ups and the downs of going back to your home town. The band shied away from using auto-tune which helps to give the album its authentic feel. It's felt in the lyrics, as well with the song Uncle Johnny recounting the real drug addiction his uncle faced, and throughout thoughts on what it means to be home.

Nobody ever had a dream ‘round here
But I don’t really mind that it’s starting to get to me
— Sam's Town
I never really gave up on
Breaking out of this two-star town
I got the green light, I got a little fight
I’m gonna turn this thing around
— Read My Mind

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Best New Song: Tourniquet

Only love hurts like this
So tie a rope around my wrist
I’m losing, I’m losing the feeling
— Meg Myers

Ol' 55

Now the sun’s coming up, I’m riding with Lady Luck
Freeway cars and trucks
Stars beginning to fade, and I lead the parade
Just a-wishing I’d stayed a little longer
— Tom Waits

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Red Planet

 
And I’ve waited for you out here, but that may be delusional
— Alvvays

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Jesus Christ

Jesus Christ, I’m alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
Because this problem is gonna last
More than the weekend
— Brand New

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Blink of an Eye

Travis Barker the drummer of Blink 182 has had a few weeks off trying to recover from serious blood clot issues. Unfortunately he got in a car accident with a school bus while driving his 14 year old son and is now facing additional health issues after being dazed from the crash.


Album of The  Week

Neil Young - After the Gold Rush (1970)

Neil Young drove a car up to the studio that was a complete piece of trash billowing smoke from the windows as well as the exhaust. He had the cops pull their weapons on him in front of the studio and despite having no license they just let him go and he went on to record the album. He originally intended to only record the song featuring the piano in studio as he had already recorded the rest at his house but it sounded so good he re-recorded it all. After the gold rush was his 3rd album after the success of the Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young successful album Deja Vu.

There was a band playing in my head
And I felt like getting high
I was thinking about what a friend had said
I was hoping it was a lie
— After the Goldrush
I saw cotton and I saw ‘bacc
Tall white mansions and little shacks
Southern man, when will you pay them back?
— Southern Man

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Best New Song: Wooden Stairs

Hold your arms out to me
And I will come eventually
I’m hopin’ for some time on the other side
— Cowboy Junkies

Tomorrow Wendy

She’s walking to end of the line
And there she meets
The faces she keeps in her heart and mind
— Concrete Blonde

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Zombie

 
But you see, it’s not me
It’s not my family
— The Cranberries

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Shelved

 
You can’t pay me to make that kind of music
Not gonna swallow that pill
— The Mountain Goats

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No Ego

Bono and Kanye had a collaboration song won't be released as the artists involved just couldn't find what they're looking for. 


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Best New Song: Fall Into Me

 
Know wherever we go is the best place
— Let's Eat Grandma

Every day's The Weekend

Consider these conditions, forget your inhibitions
Don’t look, jump in, every day’s the weekend
Don’t know, don’t care, every day’s the weekend
— Alex Lahey

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I Can't Stay

 
I can’t stay much longer
Riding my decision home
In the dark, for a while now
— The Killers

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How's It Going to Be

 
How’s it going to be
When you don’t know me anymore
— Third Eye Blind

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Think 182

In what is possibly the whitest thing ever, Weezer is releasing a vinyl copy of their cover of Toto's "Africa" after a Twitter campaign requesting the song. Mark Hoppus of Blink 182 revealed his pitch to catch Saddam Hussein after someone on Twitter asked him the least plausible story about him that is true.  

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Best New Song: Hunger

And then it tries to find a home with people, oh, and I’m alone
Picking it apart and staring at your phone
— Florence + The Machine

Change

Change is a powerful thing, I feel it comin’ in me
Maybe by the time Summer’s done
I’ll be able to be honest, capable
— Lana Del Rey

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It's Only Life

Back when you thought I’d never get this far
But did you really think I’d shut an open door?
The future’s calling and I’mma answer
The wheel’s in motion, I never drank the potion
And I know it breaks your heart
— The Shins

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The End

Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I’ll never look into your eyes again
— The Doors

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Questionable Caves

Musician Nick Cave is having a statue built of him in bronze of him riding a horse while in a loin cloth. An interesting choice for sure and he referred to the statue as “a rather beautiful piece of homo erotic art.” That's when you know you have made it, when your home town builds a ridiculous statue of you that makes no sense.  


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Best New Song: Crush

 
Hold you here my loveliest friend
— Cigarettes After Sex

The Last Goodbye

I won’t forget I swear
I have no regrets for the past is behind me
Tomorrow reminds me just well
— The Kills

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Wonderful (The Way I Feel)

It matters to me
Took a long time to get here
If it would’ve been easy
I would not have cared
— My Morning Jacket

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Doors Unlocked and Open

Somewhere down, down
Down in the ocean of sound, sound
We’ll live in slow-motion
And be free
— Deathcab for Cutie

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Shapeshifter Dream

Smashing Pumpkins frontman Billy Corgan doubled down this week on claims made on Howard Stern's show that he had sexual encounters with a shapeshifter. He only hedged on his claim slightly "Maybe I had a hallucination, but I saw what I saw". I think I know where I would put my money.


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Best New Song: Pristine

And if you do find someone better
I’ll still see you in everything
Tomorrow and all the time
— Snail Mail

When You Were Mine

 
I love you more than I did
When you were mine
— Prince

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Sex and Candy

Who’s that casting devious stares in my direction?
— Marcy Playground

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Coming Up for Air

 
Arch your back and let your imagination take hold
— The Darcys

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Nirmama

Dave Grohl, of The Foo Fighters and Nirvana, is working on a new project with his mom. She did an interview series where she interviews the mom's of other famous musicians. Originally published as a book it will now be produced as a television series by the two of them. The goal of any musician is to reach the top so that you can get your mom famous, so this isn't very surprising.  


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Best New Song: Tranquility Base Hotel & Casino

And do you celebrate your dark side
Then wish you’d never left the house?
— Arctic Monkeys

How To Be Invisible

 
You stand in front of a million doors
And each one holds a million more
— Kate Bush

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Death of A Salesman

So I did what they said
Now my children are fed
’Cause they pay me to do what I’m asked
— Low

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Hannah Hunt

 
You and me, we got our own sense of time
— Vampire Weekend

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Goldblooming

I usually refrain from using this section to announce upcoming albums, but one I certainly didn't see coming is due later this year. Jeff Goldblum, of Jurassic Park and The Grand Budapest Hotel, is releasing a jazz piano album. He has been playing small shows at bars before but this will be his first album. 


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Hangout at the Gallows

Left foot, right foot
That’s the ticket
You’ll be back on top real soon
— Father John Misty

Courage

Courage, my word
It didn’t come, it doesn’t matter
Courage, your word
It didn’t come, it doesn’t matter
— The Tragically Hip

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Coca Cola

 
I’ll quit if you do
I’ll quit everything good for you
— Pity Sex

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Nephew in the Wild

In hard times
Kids grow up fast
Please be there for him
— Advanced Base

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Mental Health Awareness Month

British singer James Blake took to Twitter to talk about the response he often gets to his songs that have lyrics that are emotionally vulnerable. He says that he often receives a response of "sad boy" whenever he posts a song in which he expresses what would be seen as not masculine emotions. 

“We are already in an epidemic of male depression and suicide. We don’t need any further proof that we have hurt men with our questioning of their need to be vulnerable and open. It is only a good thing to talk about what is on your mind."


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I Know There's An Answer

I know so many people who think they can do it alone
They isolate their heads and stay in their safety zones
— The Beach Boys

In 1968 Brian Wilson started having a diminished role in the band, formerly the principal songwriter, as he started to have mental health challenges. He was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type. This lead him to be inactive and turn toward drugs. However, through various medications and therapies he was able to begin writing and recording again and says he is doing better than ever now. 


So You Wanna Be A Superhero

Just thoughts of how I might
Struggle through tomorrow
Too much time in one day
Too much time to occupy
With boring thoughts
And boring moods
And boring bedtimes
— Carissa's Weird

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Creature Comfort

 
Saying God, make me famous
If You can’t, just make it painless
— Arcade Fire

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No More Shame, No More Fear, No More Dread

If my ugly had a shape it would be a spiral
Moving forward as it spins around
It’s all that I can do to break the cycle
Just veer hard as I can then keep from crashing to the ground
— AJJ

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Mental Health Awareness Month

Last week a vigil was held, marking the one year anniversary of death by suicide of Chris Cornell of Soundgarden and Audioslave. His close friend, Chester Bennington of Linkin Park, sang Hallelujah at his funeral. On Cornell’s next birthday, Bennington took his own life as well. Mental health is a daily struggle for more people than you would think, a small act of kindness you did yesterday may have meant more to someone than you could ever know. 


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Last Hope

I don’t even know myself at all
And I thought I would be happy by now
The more I try to push it I realize
Got to let go of control
— Paramore

Turn Out the Lights

Say you wish you could find some way to help
Not to be so hard on myself
So why is it easy for everyone else?
I’m not always like this
There’s always tomorrow I guess
— Julien Baker

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Be Yourself

Someone finds salvation in everyone, another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself, down inside himself he prays
Someone swears his true love until the end of time, another runs away
Separate or united, healthy or insane
— Audioslave

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Alone/With You

 
I hate walking alone
I should get a dog or something
I hate eating alone
— Daughter

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Mental Health Awareness Month

I am continuing to use this month to promote Mental Health Awareness month. Normally this section is reserved for jokes about music news and fun facts. Unfortunately this week music news and mental health awareness month overlapped. Scott Hutchison the lead singer of Scottish band Frightened Rabbit committed suicide last week at the age of 36. The band was called Frightened Rabbit because that is what his mom used to his mom used to call him as a child because he was so shy. He started the band with his brother, and it grew over the next dozen years. His music has always been open and honest about his struggles and he has even talked about his struggles during interviews. One example of this is the their song Floating on the Forth, whose closing line is "I think I'll save suicide for another year". When asked about the song he said “It’s a real thought. It’s a thought that I’ve taken to a place that I’m far less comfortable with … I’ve gone 90% of the way through that song in real life". Ten years later and unfortunately he was not able to survive his struggle for another year.  


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Nitrous Gas

But if happiness won’t come to me
Hand me the nitrous gas
You can keep all of your oxygen
Hand me the nitrous gas
And if happiness won’t live with me
Think I can live with that
— Frightened Rabbit

Why wont they talk to me

I’m so alone
Nothing for me
I guess I’ll go home
Try to be sane
Try to pretend
— Tame Impala

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Beautiful

But everyone she knew thought she was beautiful
Only slightly mental
Beautiful, only temperamental
Beautiful, only slightly mental
Beautiful
— Belle and Sebastian

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Big Bird

 
It’s harder to be yourself
Than it is to be anybody else
— AJJ

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Mental Health Awareness Month

Once again I am doing my best to promote and support mental health awareness month. Take a moment to listen to these songs and empathize with the people who wrote them in that moment. 


Lithium

I’m so lonely, that’s okay, I shaved my head
And I’m not sad
And just maybe I’m to blame for all I’ve heard
But I’m not sure
— Nirvana

Kurt Cobain's tragic suicide is well known, so the part I am going to focus on here is the less well known aspects of his mental health battle. His family had a history of mental illness, with multiple family members committing suicide in violent ways. Mental Health issues commonly run in families and genetics is one of the primary risk factors. Kurt was diagnosed with ADD at a young age and later diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder (also known as manic-depression). This is similar to serious clinical depression with the addition of mood swings, which can result in everything from rage to euphoria.  During his manic states Kurt would be incredibly productive, with his depressive states caused him to be characterized as lazy. Bipolar people are much more likely to be addicted to drugs and alcohol as was the case with Kurt as well.  In his suicide note he was suffering with delusional guilt and expressed that he felt like his wife and child would be better off without him in their lives. I recently saw a t-shirt for sale online that had his suicide note on the front of it. It made me extremely upset, that someone would ever think that was an appropriate way to support a band or be edgy. It is disgusting to trivialize the anguish that someone must be feeling to take their own lives. Kurt often said and frequently wrote in his journals "I hate myself and want to die", if you have never had pervasive negative thoughts like that you should count yourself lucky and try to better understand and empathize with people who do. Some people's challenges aren't clearly visible from the outside, things like success with their career, or having a family can't completely erase these thoughts.


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I was thinking about how great
It would be if I could make the tightness in my chest go away
— Sorority Noise

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I Got The Blues (Macaroni and Cheese)

I’m feeling bad for saying that I’m lonely
When I have so many people who care so much about me
I’ll keep ignoring texts from good friends asking if I’m ok
— Sledding with Tigers

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Mad world

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
— Gary Jules

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Mental Health Awareness Month

This month all of the songs and writing in my posts will be in an effort to bring attention and perspective to Mental Health Awareness month. Of all the illnesses that affect the people you see everyday mental issues are the most misunderstood. The other thing that makes this topic so important is that each person is able to help the people around them to a greater degree than they realize. The impact you can make on someone with cancer is limited but your effort and kindness for someone suffering with mental health issues can literally be the difference between life and death. Just last week Avicii lost his battle with mental health and commited sucide. I've selected songs that are meant to invoke empathy, inspire, and articulate the struggles of mental health issues and addiction.


Twilight

You don’t deserve to be lonely
But those drugs you got won’t make you feel better
Pretty soon you’ll find it’s the only
Little part of your life you’re keeping together
— Elltiot Smith

Elliott Smith had mental health and addiction issues, it is reported that he was smoking up to $1500 dollars of heroin and crack each day. He also was paranoid and believed he was being followed by a white van. However he was starting to turn his life around and gave up all drugs, alcohol, and caffeine. He also was finishing the details on his latest album that was set to release soon. 

He got in an argument with his girlfriend, she claims she locked herself in the bathroom then heard a scream and when she opened the door he had a knife in his chest. It was reported as a suicide based on her testimony and his mental health history. However the autopsy confirmed there were no drugs in his system and was much more consistent with homicide than with murder, including possible defense wounds on his hands and multiple stab wounds in his chest. His girlfriend was never charged and she later sued his family for 15% of his estate claiming that she was entitled to it since they lived together. I think it is very likely that Elliott Smith's murderer got away with the crime based on an improper investigation by the police, allowing his mental health and addiction issues to bias their investigation. 


the middle

Don’t write yourself off yet
It’s only in your head you feel left out or looked down on
Just do your best
Do everything you can
Don’t you worry what their bitter hearts are going to say
— Jimmy Eat World

This song was inspired by an email from a fan that the lead singer received from a high school student who felt like she wasn't punk enough for the punk crowd or cool enough for the popular crowd and felt like she was stuck in "the middle" in between all the cliques at school.  


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i want to be well

Illness likes to prey upon the lonely, prey upon the lonely
Wave goodbye, oh, I would rather be, but I would rather be fine
— Sufjan Stevens

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Medicine

You could still be what you want to
What you said you were when I met you
You’ve got a warm heart, you’ve got a beautiful brain
But it’s disintegrating from all the medicine.
— Daughter

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Lennondary

A self-portrait of John Lennon dressed as Hitler sold for 54k this week, which is more than Hitler ever sold his own self-portraits for. 


Best New Song: Just Dumb Enough to Try

 
But I’m just dumb enough to try
To keep you in my life
— Father John Misty

Buttercup

I’ll be fine on my own, she said, I don’t need you inside my head
— Hippo Campus

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I can't Live Without My Mother's Love

 
I can’t live without my mother providing her light
— Sun Kil Moon

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Devil Boy

 
To finally realize my price... was it you or I?
— Seven Mary Three

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Jack in the Box

Jack White says he's only listened to his own music for the past year, which sounds healthy. He's been a big proponent of the move toward people buying old-school records, but even he is stuck listening to the same one over and over again rather than have to switch it out. 


Best New Song: Sky Full of Song

 
Be careful, oh, my darling, oh, be careful what it takes
From what I’ve seen so far, the good ones always seem to break
— Florence + The Machine

River

Take me to your river
I wanna go
Take me to your river
I wanna know
— Leon Bridges

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Irish Exit

 
You’re the guy that always brings the drugs
When nobody wants drugs
— Emily Haines & The Soft Skeleton

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Difficult

And now I’m standing in the rain
And your hair, it’s falling in your face
And I know we’re doing the right thing
— Billy Raffoul

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Yoko Oh No

This week a $20,000 rock inscribed with "Love Yourself" by Yoko Ono was stolen from her art exhibit in Toronto. It is kind of ironic that her rock would be stolen after her meddling helped to steal rock from so many by breaking up the Beatles. 


Best New Song: Cold Cave

 
I want the kind of love that hurts when you take it away from me
— Gin Wigmore

Night Shift

 
You got a 9 to 5, so I’ll take the night shift
And I’ll never see you again if I can help it
— Lucy Dacus

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Keep

 
It’s been a long 12 months and I’ve
Been living around just fine
— Pity Sex

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Sometime Around Midnight

As you stand under the bar lights
And the band plays some song
About forgetting yourself for a while
And the piano’s this melancholy soundtrack to her smile
— The Airborne Toxic Event

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Aladdin Stain

Unfortunately the David Bowie statue that I wrote about a few weeks ago has been vandalized with "Feed the homeless first" and "RIP DB" spray-painted on it.  A Bowie fan has offered 5k to a homeless charity if the perpetrator turns themselves in, which may be a good idea as the person was captured on camera. Apparently this person couldn't find the hundreds of other nearby extravagances to deface and had to ruin a statue, and also cost more money from the government to fix it. 


Best New Song: Never Say Die

 
All you want is to play at playing god
— CHVRCHES

Everyday Robots

 
We are everyday robots on our phones
In the process of getting home
— Damon Albarn

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Song For a Netflix Account

The good don’t die young, they just haven’t had time to
Fuck up the same as the rest of us yet
— Pat The Bunny

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There is a Light That Never Goes Out

 
To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die
— The Smiths

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Smashed Pumpkin

Billy Corgan the frontman of Smashing Pumpkins has said recently that "80% for the things that I get held up and mocked for, I'm doing intentionally". I can relate to that, if you are making fun of me the joke is on you not me. Like the time I locked my keys in my car while it was running and locked myself out of the house during a blizzard. My dad made fun of me but the joke was on him, I was doing it intentionally on a level of humor and brilliance he just didn't understand. 


Best New Song: Hold My Girl

 
I’ve got time, I’ve got love
Got confidence you’ll rise above
— George Ezra

Talking With Strangers

Yesterday I was anxious and alone
So I called a friend to make me feel okay
And for a moment, I found myself angry at him for offering help
When I should have just been grateful for what he gave
— Miya Folick

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Imagining My Man

 
It can be so hard to forgive
It’s not what I thought, and it’s not what I pictured
— Aldous Harding

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Better Strange

 
You’re so much better strange
You’re so much better when you make mistakes with me
— James Supercave

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